Through a Glass Darkly is a metaphor for a distorted way of seeing and understanding. We often don’t realize our point of view is distorted; until it is challenged. Everything I thought I knew about myself and life was challenged by a prolonged illness. As illness stripped me of my ability to work and social connections, I began to feel like a whisper of a human - a living ghost. I was becoming a blur, an unrecognizable version of myself. I began to question, “Who am I?” “I am a photographer, a wife, a mom, a small business owner.” These initial answers revolved around what I did and who I was to others in my life; but deep down, I knew this was not a complete answer. In an effort to figure it out, I began making a series of self-portraits. I felt drawn to create these photos in remote places, where I could experience uninterrupted solitude. Being away from familiar surroundings helped me to be more open minded about the changes and challenges I was experiencing. During this journey, I learned to appreciate the power of stillness and to fully give my attention to the Now. As I gave attention to these, I began to feel less afraid and less alone. I was discovering that the essence of who I am goes beyond my physical form. The essence of who I am is in my being and not my doing. This epiphany changed everything; I discovered my connection to all life and this connection transcends time. Can I now say, “I have arrived and see clearly without the distorting effects of a glass darkly.”No, not at all! But my answer to the initial question, “Who am I?” has changed, I am the intangible transcending blur.